Author Archives: Richard

As many of you know if you’ve been reading my posts here, I have an extremely hard time stepping foot into a public bathroom. My Paruresis kicks in and pretty much keeps me from entering them, no matter how bad … Continue reading →

I really thought that after my Dad died, my Paruresis Handcuffs would come off. I’ve felt handcuffed by him my whole life. I was Scared of him! I was intimidated by him. Belittled by him. Beaten by him. Broken!!! I … Continue reading →

After my Failed Attempt at Urinating in a restroom with another man present, I really took it to heart. I thought I would do better, but then again, the more I thought about it, the more I understood where my … Continue reading →

I thought I was starting to get a handle on my Paruresis. I thought that I was learning breath holding. I thought that I was making progress and the future was bright. I was wrong! Tonight was the perfect example. … Continue reading →

In all the books that I have read so far (on the right), they all talk about making a list of bathroom situations that you fear from 0-10 (or more). It’s not the easiest thing to put your phobia in … Continue reading →

I love it when I’m reading a good book and the words just strike a tender nerve. You know what I’m talking about. It’s the shot of adrenaline. The light bulb going off in your head. That “AH-HA” moment! Sometimes … Continue reading →

Animals have got it lucky. They can pee and poop in front of anybody or anything. Doesn’t matter how many people are watching either. It could be your Graduation Party with 300 Guests gathered around and your Dog would cop … Continue reading →

Here’s something you don’t hear everyday “I’m Embarrassed by my Dick!“ Now I know what you’re thinking “Poor Richard has a Small Penis” (micro-penis). But that’s not the case at all. My dick is actually above average in size. So … Continue reading →

I’ve really been doing a lot of reading, writing and thinking about Paruresis lately (I’ve picked up 4 more books, but this time on Social Phobias, Social Anxiety, Shyness and Nervousness). I’m trying to dissect it and see where it … Continue reading →

I really should try to pee as soon as the urge comes to me. I’d probably be able to go better if it wasn’t for my fear and anxiety of actually walking into a public bathroom. But instead I sit … Continue reading →