So I’m leaving for Vegas today. I’ll be there for 5 days so I won’t update until I get back.
My Goals are Simple:
I plan on using Breath Hold to be able to pee at the Airport and on the Airplane.
And then, while I’m in Vegas, I’m going to Fluid Load at the Casino, and I plan to pee there where there are plenty of guys, the bathrooms are busy, and people will probably be waiting.
This will be the first time that I’ll be casually out in public and loading up at the same time to test my desensitization.
Up until now, when I’ve done Fluid Loading, I’ve been at home loading up on water, and then rushing to a Public Bathroom to empty my bladder.
Those Bathrooms have NOT been Busy!
1 Guy, maybe 2 at the most.
So it will be interesting to see what happens when the stakes are raised.
I see no reason why it wouldn’t work!
I never in a million years would have ever imagined me peeing in a urinal next to other guys.
So being able to do that is beyond any comprehension on my part. I really can see that this recovery is possible, and that I can pee with no problems or worries.
Every success gives me confidence and tons of hope.
I’ve always shied away from drinking in public. It scared me because I didn’t want to get the urge to pee. I was too frightened that I couldn’t go.
So I’ve Dehydrated all my Life!
But now, I’m looking at things in a whole new perspective. Everything looks fresh! New! My walls are breaking down.
For the first time, I actually feel free! I feel like I can see!
I’m so happy with myself. I couldn’t be prouder of the progress I have made.
It makes me Emotional inside!
I still have a long way to go, and I’m sure I’ll experience some set backs along the way, but right now, today, I’m on top of the world.
See you on the flip side!
Hello Vegas! :)