If I could Pee like that

My best friend is NOT Pee Shy.

In fact, he’s the type of person that could whip it out and pee right in front of you. No problems!

I wish I could be that free. You’d think that hanging around with him for 15 years it would rub off…

Not in the least!

We’ve been camping with friends before, and he just pisses in front of everyone (turned away). He doesn’t care.

He Pees in my Bathroom with the Door ajar

Sometimes the door is wide open. Doesn’t care. People can walk by him, see him, doesn’t stop him.

How can he do this? It amazes me. I almost feel embarrassed for him.

The other day I had a couple of friends over and we’re all hanging out in the kitchen and he goes into the little bathroom to pee (The one with the Spider).

He shuts the door this time and proceeds to pee like a race horse.

Everyone hears him go

My friend Kay turns her head towards the door and says “Sheesh!” lol

He pees louder, faster and with stronger force than anyone I know (like Superman).

I mean, we all hear other guys pee in the public bathrooms, it’s nothing new. But this guy is like a water bomb.

He pees in like 10 seconds, where I can sometimes take 4 minutes to pee. Sometimes it takes me 4 minutes to even get started. And Sometimes it takes so long, I bore myself!

Not him! He’s a pee storm and the friends in the kitchen hear it loud and clear.

He comes out of the bathroom and Kay says to him “Damn you pee loud!

He just shrugs his shoulders,

“Oh Well, that’s how I Pee!”

And that was that. Kay laughs, everyone else laughs, end of story.

I envy that!

What is it about me that makes me care about being seen or heard, and yet doesn’t phase my friend in the least?

I would give anything to be able to be that free and not care what other people think.

I would be a Whole New Man!

I will say this, I’m still peeing directly in the water and making noises. Have been for 10 days. It’s rather refreshing!

I keep saying to myself “No one cares if I Pee!

I know it’s true, I just have to train myself. Maybe one day I’ll pee like a Banshee?

I wonder if I’ll ever truly be free? Or if I’ll have to work on it, taking it one day at a time?

Will I ever totally be Cured?

My friend knows I have some peeing issues. He’s had to wait for me to go plenty of times before I leave the house.

He knows I have some problems in public. And yes he gets frustrated waiting for me, which just makes it harder to go.

He doesn’t know the full extent of my phobia. That’s hard to admit even to your best friend.

He’s seen me walk into a public bathroom before and instantly turn around and walk out “I can’t Pee in there!

I usually make an excuse that someone’s taking a dump… I don’t think he’d ever understand exactly what I’m going through, especially since he pees like a fireman’s hose.

Pee Like A Firemans Hose

So for now I get to listen to him and wish it could be me.

It sounds crazy to say, but If I could Pee like that, the weight of the world would fall off my shoulders.

One day!

One day! :)

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2 Responses to If I could Pee like that

  1. Brett says:

    Quote from above:
    “Sometimes the door is wide open. Doesn’t care. People can walk by him, see him, doesn’t stop him. The other day I had a couple of friends over and we’re all hanging out in the kitchen and he goes into the little bathroom to pee. He shuts the door this time and proceeds to pee like a race horse. Everyone hears him go. How can he do this? It amazes me. I almost feel embarrassed for him. What is it about me that makes me care about being seen or heard, and yet doesn’t phase my friend in the least?”

    I sat to pee for many years because of not wanting to make noise when I peed. (Thanks to my sister for making me self-conscious about the noise). One time I visited a guy from work. There were 2 women from work there, too. He walks across the living room to the bathroom, stands profile to the doorway, slams the seat against the tank, and took a super loud piss. I was both embarrassed and turned on. Like you, I wished that I could be that guy.

    Many years later, I have lost almost every bit of my pee shyness. I have no problem using any urinal, even if the door is propped open and anyone can see me pee. I’ve been getting daring and will pee outside when I can get away with it. The last battle has to do with peeing directly into the water and making a thunderous noise with friends or family nearby. Doesn’t bother me in the least at a public bathroom, or when guys are visiting my house. Guys will often leave the door open, and I have started to do this about 5 years ago with a few of my male friends. I like to hear them pee, and I want them to hear me pee like a typical male. I live alone and pee standing up all the time when I’m at home alone. I especially like it when one of the neighbors walks by (3 feet from my bathroom window) and I know that they can hear me pee. But when my close female friend and her daughter are visiting, or when I visit my relatives, I’m too hung up to pee standing up into the water because I don’t want them to hear me pissing. I don’t know if I’ll ever get over it. I’m glad that I have come as far as I have.

    I want to see if this post works as my previous post was unsuccessful.

    Thanks! Brett

    • Richard says:

      Hi Brett. I tell ya, that was the first thing I did to try to overcome my shyness, peeing loudly in the water. That itself is a HUGE undertaking and started to change the way I thought and felt. Congrats on being able to do so and not worrying about it. Just keep practicing and fight those fears. :) -Richard

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